ladyvontramp

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Even though I love my partner, we're on a two week break type thing... which is actually crap. I miss him all the time and I can't see how this will help. Basically he has his own business and therefore has no time for anything other than work which kinda leaves me high and dry most of the time, so I suggested we take some time out to prioritise. Translated, he needs to figure out whether he has the time or the inclination for a girlfriend right now.

Fingers crossed x

Ok, so I've been working at this company (Aspirare Development) since halfway through February this year and have been really enjoying it. I work as an advisor, 'selling' government funded training to businesses over the phone. I never thought it would be the sort of work I could manage comfortably, especially considering my pay is basically commission based, but I'm actually relatively good at it and am earning the same as I was taking home in my previous job even though I'm only working half the hours (20-25 hours a week as opposed to around 50) which I'd say is pretty good going.

I absolutely can't complain about the free time I have now either, it's been such a novelty having my weekends free and to be able to do as I please from Friday afternoon to Sunday night. Plus I'm really looking forward to being able to spend Christmas with my family, have a prolonged holiday, you know? I've worked the past two Christmases running, instead of getting the day off at my old job for religious holidays we were payed double for Christmas Day and Good Friday at Easter which, when you think about it, doesn't even come close to making up for missing out on quality time with family and friends. On top of that we have Carnival Week in August in the town where I live and I've missed that twice because of my old job, so while all of my friends were spending the whole week having lots of great, British Summertime fun I was stuck at work. I won't sacrifice life in the name of a career any more, simple. Having said that I would like to make it clear that I do believe in working hard for what you want, nothing comes for free and so on and so forth.

Anyway, we started a new process at work today and it's looking promising. It has been so disorganised up until now and we've been finding it increasingly difficult to keep on top of which leads have been used, how long ago certain companies were contacted and so on and for obvious reasons this has been causing problems. But today (finally) we started using this new thing called 'Sales Force' and it's so much easier! I was kinda nervous yesterday when everybody had to meet first thing in the morning to be trained up, I am definitely not a fan of change and although I could see how much simpler the changes would eventually make things for all of us I was still concerned as I'd gotten used to how things were... but I get it. So, sigh of relief, it's all fine. I made a satisfying £60 in four hours today, not bad.

Not much else to add, really. I'm basically rambling so I might as well wrap this up. Thanks for reading ;o)

So I had real trouble accessing my account this time. 4 years has a funny way of making you forget login information... but Holmes would be so proud - I went through a delicate process of typing all of my online nicknames I've ever had into the address bar in the livejournal url one at a time until - voila! - 'ladyvontramp' turned out to be the one I'd chosen when I created my online journal. Then I simply had to remember my password, so again with the testing each one I've ever had until I got it right. Fortunately I didn't ban my own IP this time, go me. What a palaver!

Last time I made an entry I'd been with my partner for only a few months but now I can happily say we've stayed together and it's been 4 years and 2 months so far. Still very much in love.

Also absolutely loving the warm weather we've (finally) been blessed with on the Norfolk coast after what seems like a very long and miserable Winter! I think I'm going to enjoy this Summer.

Finally, hello to all of my old internet buddies, I hope you're all doing well and would love to hear from you soon x

Ok, where do I start?

Most of you will already know I've been back in Norwich for quite some time now and that I'm living with my boyfriend Jamie. Well, what else is there to say? Good man, good job, good life... I'm really happy.

Thanks for being there for me when I needed you though, it means a lot xxx

Just a quick note to anyone who's been worrying unnecessarily about little ol' moi... I left KMC for personal reasons but they involve a guy, a life turn around and lots of other little elements which don't need to be discussed. Basically, when life kicks you up the arse and makes you re-evaluate priorities and such, certain things need to be sacrificed. KMC just happened to be one of the first addictions to be rehabilitated out of my excessively full system. So, in conclusion, don't sit and stress for me, I don't expect it. You all have my email address, a few people have my number and I'm not dead. Very much alive and kicking like a mother fucker. Peace out darlings xxx

Wahoooo!! OMG, I'M GOING TO THE GREENDAY CONCERT IN JUNE!!! *dies* Ahem, anyway... how things change!! Ok, I've been living back home with my dad since September last year because everything went completely wrong where I was living... but whatever, so things have been going really well and I've been working my ass off doing whatever I needed to do to sort myself out, but my job ends in March so I've been job hunting and stuff, BUT, and this is the big BUT *snigger* 'Big Butt' HAHAHAHA *cough* Sorry, so yeah, the big, um, difference, is that I'm now job hunting in the area where I was forced to move away from last Sep. Norwich city, my home town. SO many elements combined to make me have to leave, and most of those have been dealt with. Mainly in myself, problems and insecurities, the fact that I was doing mass amounts of illegal substances and simply couldn't hold a job down, well, things have changed. Like, really changed. I no longer do drugs, I no longer drink a bottle of vodka daily, I no longer feel the driven need to go clubbing every night... things like that y'know? I'm probably making no sense right now but that's what this LJ is for, or was for, initially; somewhere for me to rant and rave and ramble incoherently. Just to satisfy an itch I guess. So, satisfied yet? Nope. But I'm getting there, and that's the point, I'm getting somewhere. Wish me luck as I venture forth into darkness unknown... ok, fuck that, I know exactly where I'm going, exactly what I want to do and exactly how I'm going to do it. My way.

Yeah, a new year. A new start? Could be.... except, I'm not too sure I'm looking for an entirely new start. I already did the new start thing three quarters of the way throught this year. I always was impatient. Anyway, I don't have much to say today except I AM looking forward to a new beginning.... but only because it's the year I turn 21; nothing deep and meaningful about it.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:

1 Kerry
2 Kez
3 Kel

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:

1 Syren
2 Mrs Link
3 English Moosette

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:

1 My wit
2 My eyes
3 My legs

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:

1 My attitude when confronted
2 My insecurity
3 My hair in the morning

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:

1 English
2 Gaelic
3 Romany

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:

1 Thinking too far ahead
2 Insecurity about my capabilities
3 Losing my family again, I don't think I could handle that

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:

1 Cigarettes
2 Coffee
3 KMC *shame*

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:

1 Moto jeans
2 Reebok sweater covered in magnolia paint. Ruined, flipping ruined
3 A silver necklace from my best friend Simon, Xmas present

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or artists (at the moment)):

1 Greenday
2 Eminem
3 Usher

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:

1 Boulevard of Broken Dreams ~ Greenday
2 We are the Waiting ~ Greenday
3 Like Toy Soldiers ~ Eminem

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:

1 Driving
2 French A Level
3 Smiling every single day

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):

1 Trust and honesty
2 Compassion and empathy
3 Excitement yet underlying security

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE

1 I smoke too much
2 I drink enough
3 I have stopped biting my nails

THREE THINGS ABOUT THE PERSON THAT YOU FIND ATTRACTIVE:

1 His high intelligence without egotistical appreciation of his own ability
2 His interest in everything that I am, anything that I say and all that I love
3 His physical attributes. Duh

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:

1 Quit the nicotine, man
2 Let go of some aspects of my past
3 Sleep, at the moment

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:

1 Reading and writing, poetry and prose
2 Working on my website and hanging on KMC
3 Socialising, with family and friends

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:

1 Eat some peanut butter on toast. Or Oreos
2 Pass my A Level by magic
3 Get physical with a certain somebody

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:

1 English teacher
2 Web designer
3 Proof reader

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION HOLIDAY:

1 Egypt
2 Thailand/Cambodia
3 Canada

THREE KID'S NAMES:

1 Logan
2 Eboni
3 Regan

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:

1 Live entirely
2 Love completely
3 Laugh properly

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW OR DIE PAINFULLY:

1 Lana
2 Shellie
3 Chelsea

	Pondering Something....
	Tongue Action
	What? What??
	Say Cheese!!
	Pouting Muchly.
	Pouting Muchly More!

Yeah, like the title says, it's been some time since I updated. About a month in fact. But no matter, I be here now.... I just emailed my second assignment away to my tutor, I actually received a B+ for my first one. I'm doing English Lit/Lang combined at A Level standard so it's quite difficult. I had real problems with the last assignment because, having written a piece of narrative prose using a radio transcription as incentive, I then had to write up a commentary on how I actually wrote the prose. ARGH! I was one of those kids in school who avoided writing a plan or drawing a storyboard for any English essay, I never felt it a necessity. So to have an assignment which incorporated said detailed plan of how I actually wrote my final piece was hell. To say the least. It's a week later than it should have been but because I'm doing home study my tutor is extremely flexible and has already said that it's down to me to be responsible enough to get them in on time, or at least, not months late. Moving on, I cannot wait for Xmas!! I'm so totally stoked that this year I'm going to be spending it with my family and not alone, or pissed up in some seedy club with complete skanks like the last four years. Let's just say I've had a pretty messy adolescence and it's about time I became more sophisticated. I can do it when it's needed so why shouldn't I mature properly, I'm 20 now and I've been messing around far too long. Jeez, I sound like I'm reading from some psychologist's notes or something, but alas, it is true. I should be reaping the benefits of an illustrious career right about now, but instead I'm a librarian in a school and I'm taking my freakin' A Levels from home, three years after I should have already passed with flying colours. But, hindsight is a bitch, being a librarian isn't all bad and I will eventually be the person I want to be. We all gotta start somewhere, right?

I went to school again with my step mom, I work voluntarily, helping her coz she's the school librarian. She's leaving at the end of the week and the Head has requested that I remain there, covering til Xmas, then he's gonna open the job to outsiders and also myself. I have a good chance of getting the permanent position after Xmas because obviously I've been working there since the start of this term and I know how it works, I know the staff etc. But he's got to do it by the book and allow others to apply... I'm not certain that I'll even apply for the job on a permanent basis later because I want to do an NVQ in childcare, but the place where I applied for my NVQ has suggested that I do my training actually at the school, should I be offered the job. I've got things to think about, I'm not sure whether to do childcare with preschool kids or do my hours in a middle school so as to work my way up and eventually become a teacher. Hmmm...

Man, today was the slowest day ever!! I didn't actually wake up till gone 11, I was soooo tired last night but I didn't go to sleep early, I never go to sleep early. I think I have what I like to call 'Semi-Insomnia'. I do sleep, but only half the requisite time :D Anyway, I woke up to the not-so-wonderful sound of my step mom singing Khia ~ My Neck, the cut version obviously, but it was still enough to make me drag my sorry ass outta bed to see why she was hollering all over the upstairs. I peeked outta my room to the horrible sight of boxes everywhere, no visible landing carpet and a ladder smack bang in front of me. Leading up to our loft. I ventured out about another millimetre and a box skimmed my nose, I think I lost a layer of skin..... Without further ado I hop-skipped backwards, pulled some trousers on and then squeezed around the ladder, narrowly avoiding the debris falling out of the hole in our hallway ceiling. After splashing my face with ice cold water I slouched down stairs for my NECESSARY cup of coffee, then went back upstairs to offer assistance. Big mistake. For the rest of today I filled boxes, taped boxes and wrote lists of items in said boxes. I'm going insane!! I'm at that point already where I know if I see another box I'll crack up. But, we have another two weeks of packing til we move..... oh yeah, we're moving. All the way over to the other side of Stowmarket, the town in which we already live. It's a small bungalow but it has loads of building potential, which is what my dad really enjoys. I will actually have to sleep wrapped around our boiler in the airing cupboard, but that's not a problem so long as my dad can extend his property! G'night readers ;)

I become a fully fledged journalist. Well, if I can work out how to use the journal I just created, then perhaps it will still be today. The way I'm going it looks like next Friday will actually be the day. But I'm rambling. I'm talking to myself, which is great, I'm used to that. But I'm also writing a JOURNAL, which is not so great. I never kept a diary in my LIFE. I hate to log my thoughts, feelings, actions and recriminations, regrets, wishes, hopes and ambitions. It's all bullshit to me. So, this begs the question, what am I doing right now? I will answer THAT next time.....

Ok, so i just created myself a journal. But I can't work out how to use it properly. I've made my own website chat forum already and I cannot get to grips with this.... *feels ashamed* If there is anyone out there who would perhaps like to give me a tutorial I would be so grateful. And Alana or Joe, if you see this and tell anyone, I'll kick both your asses ;) Love Kerry xxx